'13 Reasons Why' Season 1 Recap #4

So if you haven't read parts one through three, please do so now. I also have to say a trigger warning and spoiler alert is now in place. Also if you are in crisis, or know someone who is, please seek help.

Episode 11 and tape 11 (Tape 6, Side A) is dedicated to our living main character, Clay. Clay finally listens to his tape while Tony is there to support him. Even though she blames him for leaving her alone at Jessica's party, she insists that the only reason he is on the tapes is because he was a part of her story. Justin had gone back home, but when things got rocky he tries to get another place to stay. Mr. Porter was afraid he would lose his job. Then Clay wonders if he himself should end it all, because he feels like it was all his fault. Justin finally tells Jessica that he lied, and that she was raped.

Episode 12 and tape 12 (tape 6, side B) is dedicated to Bryce. Hannah blames Bryce for raping her at his party. After the party she started making her list. All the kids on the tapes are subpoenaed. Hannah also lost the money for her parents deposit, which makes her depressed. Tyler buys a gun in an alley. Some of the kids decide to tell the truth, starting with Bryce. Clay gets Bryce to kind of confess to rape. One of the boys shot himself—we don't see who it is though.

Episode 13 and tape 13 (tape 7 side a) is dedicated to Mr Porter. Hannah blames him for not truly helping her when she reached out. We also see Hannah want to give life a second chance. Hannah tells Mr. Porter about the rape, but she leaves his office after he tells her to move on. After Mr. Porter didn't follow her, she went home to kill herself. Hannah got the recording device from Tony. The depositions start in this episode. Justin sounds suicidal when he talks to Jessica. Clay reaches out to Mr. Porter about Hannah, and what he could have done for Hannah. In a flashback we see Mr. Porter try to help and understand Hannah. Clay tells Mr. Porter about the tapes, and gives him the tapes. Clay also tells Mr. Porter who raped Hannah. We also find out that it was Alex who shot himself, and was in the ambulance in the previous episode. We see Tyler with a lot of guns and ammunition in a trunk. Tony gives the Baker's a copy of the tapes as audio files on a zip drive. Tyler confess to the existence of the tapes in his deposition. Justin tells Bryce about the tapes, and that everyone knows about the rape. Jessica tells her dad about the rape. At the end of the episode we see Sky, Clay, Tony, and Tony's boyfriend all drive away.

This series is very hard to watch, but the topics they tackle are not pretty. Bullying, depression, suicide, and sexual assault are not pretty topics to talk about. The good news is that there is hope and resources out there for you. Sometimes there are people that feel like there is no help or hope available. I have a loved one who struggles with depression, and it is hard for me and them. Those who have depression need support, love, and understanding. Sexual assault and rape victims also need support, understanding, and love as well. So be kind to each other and stop being bullies. Also if you are depressed, suicidal, or are a rape or sexual assault victim, reach out for help.